Monday, December 5, 2011

just another manic monday...

Aquarius Horoscope
Monday, December 5, 2011

You may feel especially close to someone you love today as beautiful Venus in your 12th House of Inner Peace is supported by competent Mars in your 8th House of Intimacy. Nevertheless, you're still tempted to go off by yourself now in an attempt to protect your heart. Even if being vulnerable raises old fears, you will be happier if you stay involved. Don't worry if differences of opinion come to the surface; negotiating a compromise can bring the two of you even closer together.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

TAKING CARE OF OTHERS AND TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF

Words that describe you:

Fair, Considered, Collaborative, Responsive, Sensible, Diplomatic, Contemplative, Indulgent, Rational

You are important. So are other people, especially if they are in trouble. You have a tender heart, but you know how to establish and keep personal boundaries. You are empathetic and compassionate, but you also believe that it's best if people solve their own problems and learn to take care of themselves, if they are able.

FOCUSED AND FLEXIBLE

Words that describe you:

Casual, Informal, Compliant, Reliable, Organized, Solid, Dependable, Uncommitted, Genuine

When you take on a task at work or at home, you are reliable; you get the job done. But you're not a slave to the plan. You're committed to it, but not chained to it; the connection is more casual and informal. You know that sometimes "the best laid plans" fall off the tracks; when this happens, you clean up the train wreck and start over, undeterred.


SOMETIMES STEADY, SOMETIMES RESPONSIVE

Words that describe you:

Adaptable, Engaged, Able to Cope, Passionate, Perceptive, Flexible, Receptive, Aware, Avid

In some ways, you've got the best of emotional worlds. When emotions rise up from inside you or are brought forth from a conversation by a friend, you know how to engage them. You deal with sadness, fear, joy, anger - whatever comes up - in ways that are perceptive and flexible.

OUTGOING

Words that describe you:

Friendly, Gregarious, Full of Life, Unreserved, Kindhearted, Talkative, Emotional, Spontaneous, Vigorous

People light you up. In conversations, planning meetings or almost any social situation, you bring your energy and your friendly, outgoing personality into these engagements with other people, and you come away pumped up. You can hardly wait for the next event, as long as other people will be there. And you're good at it.

CONTENT

Words that describe you:

Sensible, Realistic, Conventional, Sincere, Simple, Firm, Earnest

You find that you are usually more comfortable with ideas and beliefs that you have held for a long time. These values, which for you are tried-and-true, provide you with practical solutions to life's problems, and with straightforward ways of engaging in intellectual discussions and debates. You've tested these positions over time, you know them well, they work for you, and you trust them.

Friday, November 4, 2011

sigh...

Dreams, that's where I have to go to see your beautiful face anymore.
I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio.
Hope, hope there's a conversation where we both admit we had it good,
but until then it's alienation, I know, that much is understood.

And I realize
If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what they say, I'm not over you

You took this heart and put it through hell
But still you're magnificent
I'm a boomerang doesn't matter how you throw me

If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you

And if I had the chance to renew
You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do
I could get back on the right track
But only if you'd be convinced
So until then...

If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you
Not over you
Not over you
Not over you



Tuesday, September 6, 2011

his girl

I've known about you for a while now.
When he leaves me, he wears a smile.
As soon as he's away from me, in your arms is where he wants to be.

But you're the one he rushes home to.
You're the one he gave his name to.
I never see his face in the early morning light.
You have his mornings , his day times,
and sometimes I have his nights.

But does he love you?
Like he loves me?
Does he think of you when he's holding me?
Does he whisper all his fantasies?
Do he love you like he's been loving me?

But when he's with me, he says he needs me.
That he wants me. That he believes me.

And when I'm in his arms,
he swears there's no one else.
Is he deceiving me?
Or am I deceiving myself?

I should not lose my temper.
I should not be ashamed.
I have everything to lose.
I have nothing to gain.





He calls her his girl.
He doesn't love me.
He probably never will.
He likes what I can do for him.
And so do I.
But I'm connected.
Physically, and emotionally.
I just might love him.
And it's going to kill me.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Wednesday Morning Reflections...

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out

I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Goes around, comes back around
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Personal or Professional?

Aquarius Horoscope

The potential for fun and games continues to grow, making it nearly impossible for you to choose only one path. But you need to limit your activities because you cannot do everything. Still, you may take on more than you can handle today, without realizing that too much of a good thing can tire you out or, at the least, cause indigestion. Practice moderation; a bit of self-restraint now allows you to have a better time in the long run.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

"Have fun while you can."

The above quotation and journal title was said by my 97 year old great aunt.
She asked if I had a boyfriend.
I responded "no".
I was slightly still upset about my pre-summer breakup.
She replied "Good. It's better that way."
*Insert confused reaction here.*
"Have fun while you can. Life's too short to be anything but happy."

So true.


So... Let the random dating adventures commence.
I've met the good, the bad, and the ugly.
And the freaking gorgeous too.

I've had first dates, sleep overs, and texting buddies.
I've had ice cream, coffee, beer, and shots. Lot of shots.
I've had handsome, muscular, tattooed military men.
I've had gas/oil workers with Southern accents and deep pockets.
I've had old flames recycled from summers past. Some are still burning.
I've met boys online, at the bar, and through friends of friends.
I've had great kissers, super snugglers, and some who I made drop me off on the corner so they couldn't see where I lived.
I've had guys I can't believe I agreed to meet, and some who I want to have their babies.


Sometimes I'm ready to ditch them all and wait for Mr. Right to come find me.
Sometimes I'm too busy having fun with Mr. Right Now to even worry about that.
Sometimes I love lots of attention from lots of random boys. Sometimes it's exhausting.
Sometimes I forget which boy has which turn on. It's a big difference between ears and nipples.


Long story short - I want my happily ever after. I want the fairy tale. I want the boyfriend turned fiancee' turned husband turned father of my children. All of my children. Not the soap.

But, I'm 26 (and a half). I want to settle down, but I ain't settlin for anything less than everything.

Friday, July 22, 2011

I want somebody...

I want someone I can talk to
all night anytime I want to
Who’d be there when I want
and won’t be there when I don’t want
They’ll be who understand it’s not easy to understand me
Someone who loves me, sometimes bugged me, sometimes makes me wanna scream
I need my space but not on my face
I want somebody

I want somebody I can bitch about
I want somebody I can’t live without
I want somebody who can make me insane, completely crazy
I want someone who gonna come and mess me up and make me wanna wait too much
Sometimes hate me, sometimes love me
I want somebody
I want somebody

I want someone I can fight with
And then make up all night with
Someone who makes me mad and makes me laugh and has my back through it all
Someone who loves my flaws and loves me ’cause I’m crazy
When I feel ugly absolutely but still think I’m beautiful
When I’m a mess, used to think I’m the best
I want somebody

I want somebody I can bitch about
I want somebody I can’t live without
I want somebody who can make me insane, completely crazy
I want someone who gonna come and mess me up and make me wanna wait too much
Sometimes hate me, sometimes love me
I want somebody
I want somebody

Someone who knows when to stay away
Knows how to take my breath away
Knows that no one could love me better
What I need is..
What I need is..

Somebody I can bitch about
Somebody I can’t live without
I want somebody who can make me insane, completely crazy
I want someone who gonna come and mess me up and make me wanna wait too much
Sometimes hate me, sometimes love me
I want somebody
I want somebody

I want somebody I can bitch about
I want somebody I can’t live without
I want somebody who can make me insane, completely crazy
I want somebody I can bitch about


Thursday, July 14, 2011

sigh

I don't want to get too close
I don't want to get too close
You see this isn't where my head is
If you knew me I'm not like this
But I just found someone special
And that's really something special
If you knew me
Nice to meet you anyway

I believe you're very fine
Still I haven't got the time
'Cause I just found someone special
And that's really something special
If you knew me
Nice to meet you anyway

And the sky opened up
With the soil of the sun
Dreaming of my true love

I don't mean to be so strange
But my life just took a change
'Cause I just found someone special
And that's really something special
If you knew me
Nice to meet you anyway

So before this goes too far
Let me tell you what you are
You're amazing, I'm attracted
But I'm terribly distracted
And I'm trying to be verbal
And I'm back into this circle
Because I just found someone special
And that's really something special
If you knew me
Nice to meet you
Nice to meet you
Nice to meet you anyway

And even if you want me to stay here
I'm telling you right now
I should leave
Before I get to changing my mind, dear
I hope you understand what I mean

Friday, June 3, 2011

who knew

ENFJ- The Teacher
You scored 91% I to E, 42% N to S, 19% F to T, and 32% J to P!
Your type is known as the teacher, or the educating mentor. You also belong to the larger group, called idealists. You tend to bring out the best in other people. You lead without seeming to do so. People are naturally drawn to you. You expect the very best from people which takes the form of enthusiastic encouragement which is so charming that people try their best not to disappoint you. You share your personality type with 3% of the population.
You need to feel a deep and meaningful connection to your romantic partners, and go to great lengths to understand and please your mate. Harmony is vitally important to you, and you often put others' needs before your own. You have a pretty thin skin and are easily hurt. Although you strive for harmony, when your values or ethics are violated, you can be very emotional, confrontational, and even punishing. However, you are very insightful about the underlying cause of conflicts, and an excellent communicator, so you have the tools to bring about a quick and peaceful resolution as long as you can keep control of your facilities. You want to be appreciated for your thoughtfulness and compassion. You need your partner to make a real effort to get to know you. Above all, you need to be able to express your feelings and have them taken seriously.
Your group summary: idealists (NF)
Your type summary: ENFJ

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I'm gonna be a superhero...

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore
And imagine how i'll make the world a better place


All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognize
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na...

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
Sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark but don't bite

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognize
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na...

Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Spring Break

It's spring break. How am I spending my precious vacation? Creating a blog, of course!

I have no idea why I felt compelled to add that little orange square to my daily dose of online socialization. Maybe it's because everyone else is doing it. Maybe it's because I can post longer updates than I can on Facebook or Twitter. Maybe it's because I deleted my MySpace. Maybe it's to rant and rave about my family, my boyfriend, my kitten, my job, my other job, my lack of a real job, my $80 grand student loans, my messy house, my students, my fears, my favorite song lyrics, or Lord knows what else.

Long story short - It's just another way for me to express myself. Read if you want. Don't if you don't. :)